Just formally pulled out of the China adoption program. Yes, I knew it was coming. It is just so final. The wait is ridiculously long, perhaps another 4 or 5 years at this pace. So many children who will never get homes. So many hearts broken like mine.
Each step now feels like ice cold water thrown in my face. Almost got through yesterday without crying. Now today is blown too.
At 45 years old, dreams of more children die quickly...dare I hope for a miracle? Miracles don't happen for people like me. My last and only miracle is almost 7.
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